Sunday, July 19, 2009

Where am I Going, Why am I Here?

this was taken about the time I wrote the poem

Where have I been? I don't even know. I've been trying to clean my room, getting puffy-eyed from bad make-up (am about to do a major tossing out of eye shadow, very sad about this) and listening to new music, and considering becoming a real etsy seller to make a little dough.

Anyway, I usually NEVER put poems online because they're so intimate and personal. I don't even really advertise my blog to many friends. But I don't know if I care any more. But I found this one from a notebook, dated January 26, 2007 and I really sort of like it. It's very romantic and most of the poems I've written (that I like) are very morbid and dark.

Well, here it is. Hope the itty bitty handful of readers enjoys:

beautiful captivity

I guess trees must long for spring
and slaves dream of an unowned shore

I guess I love you like that

like a deep sleep
no. a coma, heavy and dark
a place with no escape

I am lost in longing,
impenetrable, starless, moonless crypt

of longing
of loving you, I guess

and you might say simple things
and discuss your laundry or your cat

but inside of the air,
all the air

between us

I am listening, silent, arrested,
waiting, hoping, dreaming

like a mystified little lamb,
missing from the flock

loving you.

*listening to Lover, You Should Have Come Over by Jeff Buckley
**how appropriate.


allison said...

that was beautiful. i'm going to save that.

and yes, that does seem a very fitting song.

what would you sell on etsy? i'm going to try and start selling prints soon but i'm nervous! haha

Kelsy said...

I liked that a lot. It was lovely and quirky. Glad I have an in on your blog.

Margaux said...

thanks so much guys! I'm glad you liked it.

I think I'd mainly sell used/vintage clothing on etsy. That's so exciting that you're going to sell prints!!! Super-duper cool. haha :) But seriously.